I hate when people ask after you, and ask if we still talk. Its like they know we don't and want to rub it in. I hate how sick it makes me feel. I hate the feeling I have in my chest all the time, a constant pain, constant reminder that you do not want to be friends. I hate how it keeps me up at night, wondering what I did wrong, to make you push me away. I don't care that you don't want me, that you don't want a relationship. But you not talking, not wanting to be friends..Is killing me. After all this time you just throw me away, it is not fair. I hate how you lie, and never take the time to visit, when you are always just down the road. I hate how you have total control over my emotions, and how it makes me cry all the time.
I hate how emo it makes me sound.
I hate how I cannot hate you after the way you treat me.